I don’t have anything profound to say, because it’s hard to think of anything when you are 25,000 feet in the air and sleep deprived. If you follow my videos on YouTube then you might know that the trip I’m currently on is one I don’t really care for. Yes, it is Hawaii and being one from a region that is experiencing cold weather at the time you’d think I’m excited. Right… I love my best friend and it will be for her wedding I am traveling to.
There’re a lot of things that we don’t wish to do in life. It’s even more annoying when it’s something that other people view as wonderful such as going to Hawaii. It sucks and it feels like when you’re complaining that it’s a first world problem.
The best thing you can do when you are doing something less desirable is to make the best of it. But it’s not that easy when you’re predisposition is to be negative about everything at the first pass. But I had to learn that not everything or everyone is going to suck.
My emotions affects others just as easily as others affect me. I’ve learn that over the years and now that I have somebody who cares about how I feel I find myself being more aware of that.
You know it has been a long time when you look at your last blog post and think to yourself… “Hell it’s about time.” Twenty points if you get that reference. If you’re reading this then you’re probably wondering where I’ve been all this time. Those who watched my videos know I had been jobless for a while. As some of us know being jobless for a long period of time does things. It can make a person lazy and depressed. You forget about things and stop caring.
I stopped caring for a while.
To be honest I think I would’ve been worse off if I didn’t have my fiancé or cats. They would keep me company because I didn’t want to go out. I tried to convince myself I couldn’t afford to drop money on games, restaurant food, or even a coffee.
The videos were an attempt to do something with myself. It worked for a while. Then like everything else I tried to continue doing. I stopped.
However in April I was hired as a lab manager at a university for two neuroscience labs.
So far it has been pretty good. I’ve met a lot of nice people and have been fairly productive.
I ran a dungeons and dragons game for the first time in six months. That being said I was a little rusty, but I have the tabletop spark again.
I’m also painting again. Well I never stopped completely, but now I do it regularly.
So things are good, but they could be better. For example French Fry is on my desk. I wish he wasn’t.
Seriously though I don’t want to come home and veg out on the couch. There are so many things I could get done. I want to restart my podcast, but I have to find a partner that I can meet frequently enough and click with.
Talk Days will resume next week with two videos a week. There will be a blog post every week and the GM Tails comic will be post every Tuesday and Thursday.
I’m sure that I wasn’t the only one who jumped at the opportunity to participate in the Reaper Bones II Kickstarter. I also know for a fact that most of us who had participated in the first Reaper Bones Kickstarter have not finished painting all 200+ miniatures that we received. If you have then I tip my steampunk top hat in your direction sir or ma’am. However I am more inclined to say that you are a liar or have a legion of elves helping you. If it is the later then I must this, Santa, why didn’t I get sapphire dice I asked for?
These days I find myself with a lot of time to kill since I’m still unemployed. And though I’m trying to find a job, one quickly realizes that if a person tries to job search for more than five hours at a time every day their sanity diminishes. To pass the time I’ve been teaching myself to edit videos, etch pint glasses, knit scarves, and become a better miniature painter.
So I’m revamping my miniature picture gallery with new photos and I plan on trying to complete a miniature every few days. Ideally, I would like to paint all 200+ bones before the next shipment of Bones are sent out. I don’t think that will happen but I’m willing to try. Below are thirty I’ve already painted.
Let me start off by saying that I’m a huge fan of the book, The Hobbit. I’ve easily read that thing about five times from cover to cover in my childhood so I know it like the back of my hand. That being said I liked The Hobbit: An Unexpected Journey. I’m well aware that Peter Jackson is adding things to the movies that weren’t in the original book and I’m okay with that to an extent. I understand his reasoning for having the pale orc, Azog, as the main villain in the first movie. The book never really had a big baddie other than Smaug and of course he comes much later. A movie like this needs a central villain other than hoards of goblins, okay fine that’s fine-ish. I suppose. Radagast also sat well with me although I will point out that Jackson puts this guy in but Tombobadil is left out of…well what is done is done I won’t get into that.
But you don’t want to hear about the first movie, that’s not what this entry is about. You want to hear about the second movie. The movie where I walked out of and said to myself WTF?
The movie from the first to the second lost something called humor! Holy shizbots… if I had paid for an action movie I got it. Everyone was fighting or running away for their lives every damn moment. I chuckled to myself maybe once or twice, but it was less than the first movie that’s for sure. The air around most of the movie was sinister, foreboding, and action packed. When I think of the Hobbit I think action mixed with humor…
Smaller issues come in the form of Beorn, I don’t know about you but I was really happy when in the first movie the MistyMountain song was sung and there was the riddle battle with Gollum. I was disappointed when there weren’t any goblins signing at dwarves up a tree, but they made up for it with the singing Goblin King. I can deal with that. However the way Beorn was introduce in the book was that Gandalf kept talking of his adventure to keep the bear man at ease while bringing Bilbo and the dwarves to the house in two’s. This could’ve easily brought some light heartedness that movie desperately needed, but nope the movie has the dwarves running for their lives from the orcs, then the bear transformed Beorn, and locking him outside his house until he shape changes and has breakfast with them in the morning. The conversation at breakfast was serious of course because why not.
The scene with the spiders is my next complaint. Bilbo was always more of a clever trickster and not a fighter. We all know in the book he frees the dwarves and leads the spiders away by putting on the ring and taunting them. The Attercrop, Lazy Lob, Crazy Cob, and Old Tomnoddy taunt still linger in my memories. This also the time where Bilbo reveals to the dwarves that he has a ring that allows him to become invisible. There wasn’t any taunting, just Bilbo going invisible and fought the spiders. Then the elves came in to clean them up the dwarves get captured.
Oh look another complaint coming from me coming in the form of a red headed elf named Tauriel. I knew that she was not a canon character and I appreciated that Peter Jackson wanted to include a female character in the movie since there wasn’t one in the book. If they had left her as a woman who can take down any enemy that came her way I would’ve been very happy. What then happened was that Kili and her make doe eyes at each other while Legolas becomes jealous at their budding “relationship”. Does every movie have to have a female character that falls for someone? Even in the first Hobbit Galadriel and Gandalf seemed to have had a thing for each other at one point in the past. I hate that. This is going to play out with the sadness factor when Kili dies! I swear if Thorin, Fili, and Kili don’t die in the third movie I will be very upset. I felt like having the whole Legolas is into Tauriel thing was thrust into my face. If Thranduil didn’t say anything about Legolas having feelings for her I wouldn’t have known. And we don’t need the pretty boy of Middle-Earth in a relationship. Movie is about the dwarves and Bilbo stop showing up in my movie Legolas.
I have to voice concern about Smaug. At first Smuag when he encounters Bilbo for the first time he is an arrogant intelligent creature. And don’t get me started on how
Bilbo’s first visit to Smaug’s hoard the dragon decides to go to Laketown to burn it, but not before the dwarves have this epic fight sequence that ends in trying to drown him in molten gold. My goodness if all the dwarves in the kingdom were this epic maybe that dragon would’ve died in a long time ago. During this sequence Smuag is easily taunted like a dumb animal appearing impatient and easily manipulated.
I wanted to like this movie. I even slept the night before writing this thinking I would feel differently than I did last night The Hobbit should’ve been at most two movies and nothing more.
When I was younger every adult I came across who cared about me would tell me I could accomplish anything if I worked hard at it. Those illusions fade away when you grow up. Hope is replaced with the pain of the present and dreams become the nightmares that you didn’t know existed. This happens to some degree with everyone. Do we as a people set our young ones up for torture? Is that what my elders set me up for?
I know I’ve been off the radar for a while without any blog posts and normally I don’t write personal posts but this is tied in with gaming so I figured it was alright. For those who need a recap about me, I start tabletop gaming in 2008 and shortly after my first few dungeons and dragons games I started to dungeon m aster. There is something about being able to control a world and develop it that brought me back to my story writing days. I have addiction for gaming in this medium and it has taken over my life. And you know what? I love every second of it.
Gaming has done so much for me. It has allowed me to become more social. I am no longer shy when it comes to strangers. I met my current long term boyfriend through it. My speaking skills have improved and I am able to stand up to people that I wouldn’t confront normally. It has given me so much confidence more than anything ever has.
It wasn’t until a couple years ago that I decided that I want a job that involves some kind of gaming. More to the point I want to write for a gaming company. I know that I’m creative enough to do this. The problem is with everything else going on my life I wasn’t sure how that was going to happen.
Well I have the gaming job I wanted, but things aren’t going according to plan. I quit my job to take on this endeavor. A lot of things have happened which weren’t in my control and to be honest I’m not sure where things are going at the moment. I’m pretty positive about the future. For those who know me personally it’s rare for me to think positively.
I’m anxious. I’m twitchy. I’m nervous. I know in one way or another I’ll be okay.